For those who've been talking to me on AIM, my frustrations with A1E aren't very secret. It's frustrating, especially since I've been trying to keep a positive head about things and not have them turn out the way they did the last time Jericoholic Anonymous was active in A1E.
One thing, at least, is different. Rather than specifically taking my grievances out in public, I've taken them to the booking committee in e-mail and PM instead. That's helped a lot. Of course, trends in A1E have pointed towards airing dirty laundry in public. I used to cause quite the stir myself, but I've kinda slinked back with my vocal criticisms of the fed, the BC or people in the fed.
That doesn't mean I don't have criticisms. I just choose to e-mail them and discuss them privately.
I think the biggest influence on that philosophy has been Dave Brunk. When I first got to EPW last year, I was the target of a pretty nasty attack by a handler whom I shall not name (Jarret, Brunk and Lindsay know who I'm talking about though) but will say that we have since made up. Anyway, he attacked the JA character for not being "original" enough for him and basically blasted Brunk and Bolich for even letting me into the fed.
Brunk summarily locked the thread (after I got in an explanation defense and Jarret chimed in with a good zinger towards said handler) and explained that dirty laundry like that is not conducive for a healthy environment.
And he's really right. No fed needs to have that kind of negative attention surrounding it all the time.
Yet A1E has had more than a few airings of laundry, from many different sources too. And yet, it's among the most stable and punctual feds around. How is this the case? Seriously, A1E seems to survive in spite of people spouting off in public.
Yet, there's an underbelly to this apparent paradox. In my opinion, the OOC environment is polarizing. Hell, I'd say it has been polarized for the longest time. And even when you have two camps, there's a good portion of disagreement among those in each camp. IT's amazing really.
A lot of times, I really don't know what to believe, or who believes in what. It's easy to pigeonhole the entire BC as participating in groupthink over a stupid booking decision or questionable match result. And it's also easy to lump everyone else outside of the BC as rabblerousers or malcontents. Yet everyone with two braincells to rub together know that neither absolute is the case.
So why did I get angry at the entire BC when I read TNW two weeks ago where JA's heat got apparently obliterated? Because I, like many others, am weak at times. And it's a lot easier to seethe or make blanket accusations in the E-Fed Smarts and Marks forum than it is to IM someone and have a heated debate. I still try to avoid confrontation over e-fedding results and angles, especially in A1E.
But there are times when questions need to be asked.